Can it really be over?
So here we go again.
A new start and a new day, and in order to begin again you must leave behind what you knew before and venture into the world of the unknown.
Or in my case, graduating high school. Today is the last day for me here at Holy Trinity High. Saying fond farewells to the teachers who somewhat supported me over the last six years of my life. While some helped me more than others, I still owe some a little respect.
I am staying clear of the history class room for as long as possible as it is the one place I am bound to break down. For three years it has been my home, sitting in my desk by the window listening to Mr Conners teach of the worlds greatest wins a losses. Falling inlove with the subject I hope someday to teach (next to english).
I won't regret my time here, or the decisions I've made.
You see it comes down to this, here I stand knowing everything that I know and have done what I was meant to do. Now starts the new journey.
I can't stick around this place for longer than I should or need to be. I'm not saying I am sad to leave though. Since my first day here six years ago (yes six, I started here in 2006, our school system goes k-6 then 7-12, all in different areas of school though) I wanted out.
I had my little cousin who is seven tell me last night as her sister graduated grade six and prepared to come to high school that she was wearing a bra. I smiled and asked "Why?" and her response was "I want to grow up faster!"
I remembered being at her age, watching my older sister get ready for prom and graduation.
Wishing to be in her shoes. Looking back at McKaylas age compared to my own I know why she wants to grow up. On the outside it looks so cool, you get to drive cars, go on dates, wear make up, drink, smoke, wear cool clothes, move out.. the list goes on.
I admit I am really excited to graduate, unlike some of my fellow classmates I am not scared of what lies beyond the doors of Holy Trinity High for me.
Then again Buddhism has taught me to embrace my destiny. Its just after ten now.
The assembly is happening in about half an hour or so. For an hour than I will sit with my fellow students one last time, and watch the principal preach safe sex, no drinking and driving and the coveted "safe summer" speech that he says every year. Which is funny because at prom when he told us not to drink too much that night everyone raised their glasses which not to his knowledge were filled with various types of alcohol. Mine was filled to the brim with green apple vodka and 7up.
In all honesty it hasn't hit me yet that today marks the end of thirteen years of schooling.
Yes I know that I am about to leave this place and never come back. Yes I am all too happy to do so. Yes I don't mind leaving behind friends that I thought six years ago I would be friends with forever.
Thing is though.
Nothing lasts forever.
Six years ago I was this blond haired, makeup clad little girl who wanted nothing more than to learn how to wear a strapless bra without fear of it falling, find a nice boyfriend and live somewhat happily ever after, you know make the cheerleading team, become prom queen, and never be bullied again.
Six years later, I've become a pro at wearing any type of bra LOL, was on the cheerleading team loved it but quit because it wasn't worth the bitchy people, I've become feared by those who bullied me, thus no more bullying, never was prom queen but did have an awesome time at prom, I dyed my hair black, got a tattoo and found myself.
Comparing both times to eachother. I am proud of who I have become.
That's why on this day, June 21st 2012, I am proud to say that I Vanessa Clarity am a graduate of Holy Trinity High School.
A new start and a new day, and in order to begin again you must leave behind what you knew before and venture into the world of the unknown.
Or in my case, graduating high school. Today is the last day for me here at Holy Trinity High. Saying fond farewells to the teachers who somewhat supported me over the last six years of my life. While some helped me more than others, I still owe some a little respect.
I am staying clear of the history class room for as long as possible as it is the one place I am bound to break down. For three years it has been my home, sitting in my desk by the window listening to Mr Conners teach of the worlds greatest wins a losses. Falling inlove with the subject I hope someday to teach (next to english).
I won't regret my time here, or the decisions I've made.
You see it comes down to this, here I stand knowing everything that I know and have done what I was meant to do. Now starts the new journey.
I can't stick around this place for longer than I should or need to be. I'm not saying I am sad to leave though. Since my first day here six years ago (yes six, I started here in 2006, our school system goes k-6 then 7-12, all in different areas of school though) I wanted out.
I had my little cousin who is seven tell me last night as her sister graduated grade six and prepared to come to high school that she was wearing a bra. I smiled and asked "Why?" and her response was "I want to grow up faster!"
I remembered being at her age, watching my older sister get ready for prom and graduation.
Wishing to be in her shoes. Looking back at McKaylas age compared to my own I know why she wants to grow up. On the outside it looks so cool, you get to drive cars, go on dates, wear make up, drink, smoke, wear cool clothes, move out.. the list goes on.
I admit I am really excited to graduate, unlike some of my fellow classmates I am not scared of what lies beyond the doors of Holy Trinity High for me.
Then again Buddhism has taught me to embrace my destiny. Its just after ten now.
The assembly is happening in about half an hour or so. For an hour than I will sit with my fellow students one last time, and watch the principal preach safe sex, no drinking and driving and the coveted "safe summer" speech that he says every year. Which is funny because at prom when he told us not to drink too much that night everyone raised their glasses which not to his knowledge were filled with various types of alcohol. Mine was filled to the brim with green apple vodka and 7up.
In all honesty it hasn't hit me yet that today marks the end of thirteen years of schooling.
Yes I know that I am about to leave this place and never come back. Yes I am all too happy to do so. Yes I don't mind leaving behind friends that I thought six years ago I would be friends with forever.
Thing is though.
Nothing lasts forever.
Six years ago I was this blond haired, makeup clad little girl who wanted nothing more than to learn how to wear a strapless bra without fear of it falling, find a nice boyfriend and live somewhat happily ever after, you know make the cheerleading team, become prom queen, and never be bullied again.
Six years later, I've become a pro at wearing any type of bra LOL, was on the cheerleading team loved it but quit because it wasn't worth the bitchy people, I've become feared by those who bullied me, thus no more bullying, never was prom queen but did have an awesome time at prom, I dyed my hair black, got a tattoo and found myself.
Comparing both times to eachother. I am proud of who I have become.
That's why on this day, June 21st 2012, I am proud to say that I Vanessa Clarity am a graduate of Holy Trinity High School.
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