Another name, another time

 Hey stargazers, 

So it happened, I changed my name AGAIN. 

A lot has happened since my last post. I'm back in Newfoundland now and the divorce went through in December. 

Things here have been quiet for the most part, there's always going to be family drama though but that's life. 

Work is going okayish which is all I can hope for with the way my job is. 

Today I have a seminar on mental health burnout which should be interesting or boring. Either way, I plan on getting some work done during it because I have a huge deadline this week I need to meet and I'm writing this on a fifteen so bare with me! 

My name is back to my maiden name Vanessa M but somehow they dropped two of my middle names on my ID which makes me now Vanessa Lillian M which I like, though I'd have loved to have Katherine on it because that's where the K comes from in VKC. 

Mary, I'm not so much a fan because it's religious. I swear to god every catholic child born in the last 100 years or more has a religious middle name. 

This time my name, well the picture (I don't have an attachment to last names anymore, quite frankly if it wasn't for my father having a fit over me wanting to legally change it to Clarity it would be that now. Or Lupercal for Logan) the picture on my ID shows me, the fully self-aware, free woman. 

I've been doing a lot of hiking and climbing since I got back to the island and it has brought me a significant amount of clarity unsurprisingly. 

I'm heading back to Fredericton on the 15th for my physical convocation which I am beyond excited about. I am going with someone very special to me and I can't wait to see her and spend time with her on the trip. 

We're meeting up at the Halifax airport and bussing to Fredericton together like I always do. 

The trip is completely planned and I'm beyond excited to be getting out of town and away for a while but to also go back to Fredericton a city in hindsight I should've never left... but we all know how I feel about regrets, they're worthless and don't do us any good. 

I hope you're all doing well and that you're healthy wherever you are.

Love and light always, 

VKC

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